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Yes I know that I'm not productive at all and thinking it won't hurt to say how's things going recently.

To sum it up......NOTHING IS GOING ON!!!

Well duh, aside from my graphic tablet broke after 5++ years of company and I haven't able to buy a replacement is the main cause of my absence in drawing......
Things been hard too with jobs and all.....and getting older have affecting my imagination too, sucks really.....but well I won;t bore you guys with details, nobody love reading a ranting journal anyway.

For now and maybe for the rest of the year guess I will just sit back, play games that I have neglected, and sit back to watch some cartoon and animes that piqued my interest (heck I even missed watching kimi no nawa and itz drawn by 1 of my fav artist for BG art)
Trying to make my life stable rather than challenging myself to unknown result, I can only hope by next year I can buy a new graphic tablet cuz every once in a while I have been itching to draw and color again.....

ALL LIFE AND NO FUN MAKES ME A DULL ARTIST

As what I said above......getting older is fine and all but if that means life is hammering on you HARDER while your surrounding is just kicking you around cuz YOU ALREADY OLD......sorry for the language but my life has become FACK ME!!

To make things worse I'm slowly losing interest in art, making art and everything related to.....tragic since I have pursued it for 10++ years and......things just never in favor of me for pursuing it anymore I guess, even most of my time now is only filled with my effort to keep my sanity in check and sadly, art is no longer playing a big part in it.

This whole year.....been trying to make few drawing and all but NOT EVEN ONE OF THEM I can love or even a little LIKE with the result.

So sorry for all the people who request my drawing and everything, as much as I want to finish it but I cannot bring myself to give out something that even myself cannot like it.

I will still trying to keep on drawing and making arts.

Was browsing through my old works again and my last journal entry, wow 2 years has passed ever since my last journal.

And onto looking on my recent work......it got no same passion inside it as what I did 2 years ago.
Kinda makes me sad that 2 years was spent without any improvement in my arts, although many other stuffs.....things that I cannot be proud of has taken place instead of me using those time to improve...

As for what to do from now on, most likely just stuffs that I enjoy doing, and drawing or any other graphic stuffs whenever I feel like it (currently haunted by lots of my linearts demanding to be colored)

And thank you guys, for people who still bears with me and everyone who's enjoying my work, sorry that updates will get slower and slower from now on.

You're always there even in my darkest days
Hey superman take a break
You give so much of yourself
But you know even heroes need some help

If you lose the fight
Between wrong and right
You can call on love to guide you
If you lost your faith
Don't you be ashamed
You can call on love to find you
And love will answer
love will answer
You can call on love

You take the fall
And no one ever sees you jump
You save a soul and now you're numb
And the pain that's in your chest
A world is changing
Don't give up just yet

If you lose the fight
Between wrong and right
You can call on love to guide you
If you lost your faith
Don't you be ashamed
You can call on love to find you
And love will answer
love will answer

You can call on love
And love will answer
Love will answer
You can call on love
 
You don´t get it doing on your own
Yea yea yea
Doesn't matter where you've got wrong
Love won't judge you

If you lose the fight
Between wrong and right
You can call on love to guide you
If you lost your faith
Don't you be ashamed
You can call on love to find you
And love will answer
Love will answer
You can call on love
And love will answer
Love will answer

You can call on love.

Lyrics from Call on love by Michael Learns to Rock

Writing the lyrics by myself for self amusement since I can't find it via google search (1 hour of non-stop listening to the song)
And this pretty much sum that nothing interesting going on lately, boring life goes by, everyday gaming and trying to rule the world on my pillow.

Young man, there's no need to feel down.
I said, young man, pick yourself off the ground.
I said, young man, 'cause you're in a new town
There's no need to be unhappy.

Young man, there's a place you can go.
I said, young man, when you're short on your dough.
You can stay there, and I'm sure you will find
Many ways to have a good time.

...

Lyrics from YMCA by Village People

Cuz I got no good joke for april fool....just gotta say...
Young man, young man, what do you wanna be?